5 weeks today - Beta # 3

Let me remind everyone that I've never been pregnant before, therefore any twinge, cramp or ache and I'm freaked out. A couple days ago I started getting this swimmer's cramp type of thing in my side and I convinced myself Poppy had floated to my tubes and I was having an ectopic pregnancy. I scrubbed the internet and was reassured that indeed it was NOT that, an indication would be decreasing HCG levels, bleeding and severe pain. Nope, not that.

But I wasn't convinced. I called the nurse from the fertility clinic, my favorite Nurse S and left a message on her voicemail. Trying to contain myself, I told her I was afraid that something bad was happening and that I had a cramp. In mid-way sentence I burst into tears, and was so embarrassed, I sounded like....well..I sounded like a crazy, hormonal pregnant woman. Even as I was talking, I was feeling silly, but still I wanted confirmation that Poppy was still growing and that his HCG levels were still doubling as they should. I asked for a third beta. Yeah, folks that's right, I asked for a third pregnancy test. *blush*

They said absolutely and agreed to see me Wednesday morning. After scouring the internet once more, I saw that my results should be around above or around 1000-1300 somewhere around there. This would mean the little bean was still swimming around in my momma-womb like he should be and multiplying and growing like a good boy does. (Watch it be a girl!)

So, today we piled into the fertility clinic once more and I had my blood drawn. Of course I was checking the lab resuls online every five minutes or so, and at around 1pm, I hit refresh and there it was "Lab Results = 1". Ooooooh! Everytime I have to click on lab results, I hold my breath, close one eye and click the link. This time when I clicked I was expecting to see something in the one thousands, like 1100, or 1150 or something like that. To my surprise, it was 2341!!!!! WHAT?!!?! Holy crip crap, we either have a very strong little baby growing or could it perhaps be......identical twins? Wouldn't that be ironic, the couple who chooses eSET falls into the 5% and gets identical twins. This level is definitely above average for a single pregnancy in the stage I'm at, but I won't jump to any conclusions just yet.

Next Friday is our first ultrasound at the fertility clinic and I am SO looking forward to it. I hope we get to hear it as well. Maybe we can even take video or something!! I'm not sure if they have a second ultrasound or not, but the end is near with the fertility clinic I can feel it. M and I have decided to bring cookies and a couple of thank you notes to send our goodbyes off in style. They did ultimately give us what we wanted, the first time around. I feel SO blessed from this whole thing.

Otherwise, everything is pretty normal. I feel a lot of uterine activity, sometimes painful twinges, but each time ir reminds me that I have a special little creature inside of me, and the pain is nothing compared to that. It's pain for a purpose, just like child birth.

Once the ultrasound is over, we'll be scheduling an appointment with the homebirth midwife we found. I've got a bunch of questions for her and want to make sure she's the perfect one for us. We'll also ask her if she has reccomendations on a doula and interview her too. This is all becoming so real!!

My mom is coming down in to weeks to scope the area out (we've been trying to convince them to move out here) and we've already made a Babies R' Us date. Yay! M and I admittedly already bought three onesies already, ha ha ha!! The one onesie I love the best is white with a chick breaking out of an egg and on the short it says "Just Hatched!"

How much cuter can you get??