CD13 - The First Shot.

Monday was my first IVF injection!

Ooooh, I was so nervous when I woke up Monday morning. Excited at first, then nervous. M forgot about the injections in the morning but I reminded him as he fixed his coffee. He told me to get ready because it would be about five minutes until he was ready and done fixing his coffee.

Oooh goodness!!!!!!! I ran upstairs to look at everything, the needles, the medicine, the instruction sheet, everything was there and waiting for us.

M came in the bathroom and I started talking to the camera, telling the camera about the date and milestone.... but then I asked M to put the camera down quickly because similar to the day when all of my meds arrived, I burst into tears. They were alligator tears, not sad tears, but tears because I was scared, because this was it, because there’s no going back after this, this is a defining moment.

We laid the needle out on the tray, the Lupron out of the box, rearranged the alcohol swabs and gauze pads, I hopped onto the counter and WHAM, I spilled his newly made coffee all over the counters and sinks.

I think M knew that I was nervous so he smiled with a weary grin, and we agreed that he would go remake his coffee, and I would clean up the mess, then we would reconvene back in the bathroom to do the shot.

Which we did, about 10 minutes later. I hopped onto the counter, he came close with the needle, I hopped down. Ok, try again. I hopped back up on the counter, he came toward me with the needle, and then I hopped back down again. Yeah, it was like that – and add in one more hop on and off.

Finally, I moved to a lower seat which psychologically made me feel better, and I closed my eyes and told him to go for it. *pinch* It’s over!!

I was SOOO relieved. I felt like I had just climbed a huge mountain, I felt excited for us and our family because the next milestone was out of the way. We high fived each other and both went on in our days.

I’m so glad that’s over. Sure, I have like fifteen + days more of Lupron, and weeks of Menopur and Gonal F, AND the dreaded IM injections, but it was that first shot that I was dreading and we sailed through it, despite our minor challenges. I feel a stronger trust for M, even stronger than before, the same type of trust you have for a nurse or someone else. Almost blind trust. Like you expect them to know what they’re doing so you just hold your breath, close your eyes and wait.

Alas, the video of my first Lupron shot. Enjoy!




Next Steps:
Stop the birth control pills on Sunday (wahoo!)
Supression Check next Friday January 18
Start the stimulation drugs!!!

CD10 - I broke up with my acupuncturist and other BCP side effects

I broke up with my fertility acupunturist. For the simple reason it was causing more stress than it was relieving. The location of the place I would normally go is a bit of a drive for me, whether from work or home and every appointment resulted in an hour and a half drive back to my house in back to back traffic.

Plus, she forgot to put on the music in my last appointment, and that was one too many irks over the past several weeks, so I wrote them a dear john letter and hope to part ways gracefully.

I'm definitely feeling the impacts of the birth control pills now. My breasts have already grown almost a full cup size, and they are sore, and my mental state seems wavering and a tad out of control, similar to what PMS feels like. I've found myself crying at least a handful of times now, out of the blue, no fair warning, just good ole fashion weeping, but it only lasts about 15 seconds and life seems to continue without incident.

M got to experience two of my crying sessions already and he handled them very well. In seven days, I stop taking the BCP and that will be just fine with me. I'm already currently taking Levothyroxine once in the morning, and Thorne Prenatals three times a day. I also take a low dose aspirin at night with the birth control pills and will continue to do so for a while. I already feel like a walking pharmacy, and I start the Lupron injections tomorrow! I'm thinking of recording it and putting it on You Tube for you all to see. Ha ha, I'm sick!

This week we have our consultation with Dr. O about eSET so we'll see what his feedback is.

In other news I feel incredibly supported all the way around from my husband, to friends, to family, to work people, to my 'online friends' to my IVF community, to the clinic and their staff....it feels like everyone is rooting for us, and that makes me wanna keep going.

More tomorrow after the first Lupron injection.